do you want me

I am moving into the city. Yes. Minneapolis for four months, and I can hardly wait.

My plan? Move to the city, because OMG I LOVE IT THERE and grow as a person and have my own space, and just love life and deal with the stress that everyone deals with and just be normal. and then when I am laid off, I will put everything in storage, and travel around and visit Gord and my aunt and grandma. And it will be lovely.

And then, depending on what happens I will either be roommates with Gord or roommates with my coworker Jeni come January.

So, we shall see what happens.

I am rather exhausted. I could really use a nap, but am trying not to.

I sent a rather sexual picture to Gord and I asked if it turned him on and he said ‘maybe’. Way to make your girlfriend feel like you don’t want her sexually. If that is your goal, you have achieved it. no need to try harder.

And you know? it sucks that I feel that way. because that is important to me. and to be honest, one of the reasons I am losing weight and am working so hard at it, is because I want him to want me.

Because I know he loves me, but does he want me sexually? I have no idea. I don’t feel like he does though.

My room is a mess, but doesn’t napping sound better than cleaning?

I am excited about all of the upcoming adventures, just hate having to wait for them all to happen.

OH! And! I will be visiting Gordie July 16-21st.

Yippers!!

Super excited about that as well.

Anywho, that is sort of an update. I hope everyone is well. Love you all!