Monday, May 30, 2011

do you want me

I am moving into the city. Yes. Minneapolis for four months, and I can hardly wait.

My plan? Move to the city, because OMG I LOVE IT THERE and grow as a person and have my own space, and just love life and deal with the stress that everyone deals with and just be normal. and then when I am laid off, I will put everything in storage, and travel around and visit Gord and my aunt and grandma. And it will be lovely.

And then, depending on what happens I will either be roommates with Gord or roommates with my coworker Jeni come January.

So, we shall see what happens.

I am rather exhausted. I could really use a nap, but am trying not to.

I sent a rather sexual picture to Gord and I asked if it turned him on and he said ‘maybe’. Way to make your girlfriend feel like you don’t want her sexually. If that is your goal, you have achieved it. no need to try harder.

And you know? it sucks that I feel that way. because that is important to me. and to be honest, one of the reasons I am losing weight and am working so hard at it, is because I want him to want me.

Because I know he loves me, but does he want me sexually? I have no idea. I don’t feel like he does though.

My room is a mess, but doesn’t napping sound better than cleaning?

I am excited about all of the upcoming adventures, just hate having to wait for them all to happen.

OH! And! I will be visiting Gordie July 16-21st.


Super excited about that as well.

Anywho, that is sort of an update. I hope everyone is well. Love you all!

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

back in MN

I told Gord I am ready to end the distance. I told him its time for us to figure out if we can work together in the same city, or not.

I didn’t word it like that though. but we shall see how it works. Because I am ready to figure things out, and I am honestly sick of the distance. I want to be with him, in the same room as him. not just talk to him on the phone.

So, we shall see how that goes.

I am back in Minnesota now. The trip was amazing. I loved the train, and the city. I found that I love cities a lot.

I gave my two week notice at work, I don’t think I told you about that. yea, I gave it. and the branch manager was so upset, that he offered to create a new position just for me, that way I would have the flexibility to travel like I want.

I hope you are well.

Friday, May 13, 2011

DC trip

I am in DC right now, with my grandma. Sitting on my bed, eating almond and wheat thin sandwiches. I love this city.

I think I just love cities. I love walking around, and exploring. I love finding the little hidden things. I love asking for the time, just to talk to locals. I love getting lost, and finding my way again. I love LOVE love taking the metro. I love commuting.

I love cities. I loved Chicago, and now I love DC as well. I really would love to live in one for just a little while –hint hint-

We went to Arlington cemetery today that was amazing. I didn’t want to be the weird one that starts crying, but its so overwhelming. Seeing graves everywhere you look. All of those lost lives, for our freedom. It makes me mad that there are so many wars, and it makes me sad for those that have lost so much. So many young men.

And then after that, we went to Georgetown. Were I shopped, to you know, get rid of feeling sad? And I loved it. I love shopping. I got a few cute things.

Tomorrow we go home, on the train. So we will arrive in MN around midnight on Sunday.

I am sorry I have been neglecting you. I just haven’t had time. I am working crazy hours, but I will try harder. Maybe I will have to put blogging on my to-do list. I do love this, so I will have to try harder.