fuck.. wait what?

I find that I like the word fuck right now. I have no idea why. I am not a curser, in fact, if someone curses around me it is usually followed by a ‘no cursing!’ from me. but in my head its
Fuck this.
Fuck that.
Fuck it.
And I have no idea why. I have even started cursing aloud when I am by myself. But do not fear, I know I must keep up the ‘no cursing’ rule, so I would never ever curse in front of anyone else. At least not yet.