I am sorry I have caused you so much trouble. I am sorry I am not the daughter that you want. I am sorry I am not like Jennifer.
I wish you understood me, and did not see me as some horrible person. More, I wish I was not some horrible person that has been forced into your life.
The day I was born, you were mad, you were out ice fishing and you didn’t want to stop. You wanted mom to wait as long as she could before taking her to the hospital. So it started before I was born.
I am sorry that I cause so much tension in the house. I am sorry you are mother always argue about the way you treat me.
I am sorry I cannot be like my brother and sister. I am sorry I enjoyed reading and doing well in school, and you just did not understand that. I am quiet and thoughtful, you do not understand that either.
You have a lot of anger toward me, and I am sorry for that. I am sorry that you cannot see the amazing person that I am. That you cannot see all good things about me, instead you focus on the things you dislike, and you soak in them, and allow them to take over what you know about me.
I am sorry you do not want to have a relationship or even talk to me.
I am sorry I cannot give you what you want.
I am sorry I make your life so horrible, if I could, I would change that.
I am sorry God decided to make us father and daughter; and that you are not up to the challenge of finding out why.
I wish things were different between you and I. I wish I could call you dad without mentally cringing.
I don’t really know what I can say other than that I am sorry for being such a disappointment to you.