Tuesday, October 26, 2010

stories that are short.

Short stories:

I thought the T. Swift cd came out on Tuesday… so I had my lazy day on Monday, and was going to go out and get it on Tuesday and start packing and whatnot. Well, then I found out it actually came out on Monday –insert squeal here-!!!!! So, I got dressed and in my wet hair (I had just gotten out of the shower) I went to the bank. And I thought it was awfully nice that the lady asked me if it was raining out. And it was sprinkling a little, but not as hard as it looked like with my wet hair. So I explained about T.Swift and then realized she was giving me a crazy look because she was asking about the rain because of the umbrella I had in my hand..

I was going out to take pictures today. And I had my camera ready, and I found the shoe that I wanted, and searched and searched for the other shoe. I had no idea where it went, it should have been right there next to the other shoe. I looked down, thinking maybe I missed it; and found the shoe… on my foot.

I hope you are all having a good week!! this lazy week sure is going slow!

Tata!

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

coffee table Love

Stacy has moved into the apartment, and i will be moving in December 1st. we have everything we need, other than a coffee table. so My Love, Gord, said he would like to get that for us as a moving in present.

Him and I were talking about what Stacy and I want, and it seemed we were all three on the same page. something simple that can hold storage.

And then Gord and I both did a google search.. and the thoughts of this being easy diminished. he showed me this:


... and that is not at all what Stacy and I were thinking.

So, since I am the nicest girl ever I tried to steer him in the right direction with this piece:

My Love informed me that was not a coffee table.. but an ottoman, since I am young and hip -ahem- I educated him on this being the new trend; he still doesnt seem to be too fond of trends that are from 1940 and beyond.

I am still playing nice and I found a piece that is a good match for what we both want:


... and Mr. Picky does really like the wood on something like this.. but he doesn't really like the top of it.


And this is picking out a coffee table for a place he isnt even living in. this is making me nervous for the day (if the day comes) that him and I decorate a house we will be living in together.

Well, at least he goes on a hunting trip for a week.. that would be enough time to decorate a house.. right?

Thursday, October 7, 2010

positive me is back!

I think part of growing up is feeling inadequate.

You feel like your body is inadequate, because you do not look like the airbrushed girls in magazines.
There is something you can always do better at work, and you feel like you fall short no matter how hard you work.
You always feel like you let down your friends. Whether its because you don’t have enough time to spend with them, or because you are too busy when they need you the most.

Would you guys like to know a secret? That may not really be a secret at all, but I like to think it is?

I battle with low self-esteem. I know I am an amazing person, I know I am not perfect, but I am myself, and I am true to myself, and that to me, is perfect.

Before Gord and I were well, Gord and I, he told me he only used to go for the perfect girls. HELLO I am far from perfect. And there is this nagging voice in the back of my head that I am not perfect, so I will not be good enough for him. but then I remind myself that he is with me. and he loves me for me, not for my body. he doesn’t love me for sex (good thing since I live about 3000 miles away). And he loved me before he even knew what I looked like. And by eating healthy and exercising, I can change my body; but I will never have a perfect body. and I like to think that he is okay with that because he loves me.

Lately I have been posting super negative posts. And I noticed it, but haven’t taken the time to fix it. and this post IS FIXING THAT. Because I HATE when I get all negative Nancy.

So. here is to being positive, again. And this is me vowing to talk more about my body issues and all of that important stuff on this here blog. Because like I have said before, this blog is meant to talk about everything. I know I am not the only one that has these issues. And I know, if I realize I am not alone I feel better; so talking about my issues and the areas that I feel are inadequate will help other people feel better and not so alone, than I am all for it!

(of course I will be putting a positive spin on it!)

Sunday, October 3, 2010

forever ends

I can’t think about it. All of the memories we made together, all of the experiences we had together. I think about how hard I have tried to change things and to make them right, and knowing nothing I have done has saved us.

I feel as if we both have failed at this. We promised each other change, and neither of us allowed it to happen.

It is hard to accept when forever ends.