I did something amazing today. I know a lot of people are going to be upset, even mad about what I did. But I honestly had to do it for myself. And for once I put myself first, and just took care of me.
It was hard to do, to turn off my phone and just let everything slide. To not talk to anyone, and to give myself peace.
A lot of my time is dedicated to being the glue that holds people together. It may be a certain person, or a certain thing about that person. it may be being the entertainment of the group. It is part of who I am, and what God wants of me. but sometimes everyone just needs to let go and allow others to hold themselves together and just rest.
Today was amazing. I did nothing. I watched TV, woke up late, cuddled with my bunny, ran to the bank. That made my entire day. I didn’t have to fix anyones problems or listen to anyone complain. I just took care of me.
I loved it.
It meant I ditched my friends. I didn’t let them know I wasn’t going. I just didn’t show. And I know that is terrible but i needed to do it.
I did something for me.
And I am very proud of that.